Troubador Not Forever

Released: 28/06/2021

ISBN: 9781800463509

eISBN: 9781800469297

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Molly’s childhood is a world of secrets and hiding. Her life is spent escaping from danger with her mother. This time they leave London at night with a supposed offer of a house in Devon. 

Lester’s house is more of a squat. He is a truly disgusting and violent man. Molly’s mother is held by the mixture of available drugs and a need to be wanted. Molly believes their lives are in danger if they try to escape. 

Outside the run-down house, Molly discovers Dartmoor. The fantastic bleak wilderness is an unbelievable space for a young girl who knows only towns and dark alleys. Molly steals her times on the moor while Lester plots. 

But when things go badly wrong for her mother, Molly seeks revenge and that’s when Police, Ambulance, Fire, and Court Services arrive. 

And that is just the beginning. 

Bookbag on Tregarthur's Promise: 'The character development is outstanding. Mellanby has created very believable three dimensional characters.'

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This isn't your usual psychiatric thriller, it's far more traumatic, more terrifying than that.
Molly was born into a 'life' of drugs, prostitution and neglect. It is beyond horrendous; what chance did the 'poor girl' have? Molly wasn't allowed to run and play.. She was used, manipulated, sold and abused to suit the adults around her. But somehow, Molly grew an inner strength.
This book brought back some awful memories from my childhood; consequently, I found it difficult to read. However, it is so well written, it allowed me to read through to the end - albeit tentatively.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/750680

by NetGalley review


This book is a mass of adjectives, harrowing, upsetting, depressing - and at last redeeming, No ild should go through what Molly is, but unfortunately too many of them do. In some ways she got off easy in the end - she survived and escaped. Badly damaged, knowing too much and too litlle.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/482260

by NetGalley reiew


A truly terrifying story. Very dark, depressing and disturbing, a very difficult read but an eye-opener, this is what happens when a child falls between the cracks.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/419610

by NetGalley review


Too awful, too real! I had to read it as I would a violent, awful film that had parts I wanted to find out about but not really the strength of mind for everything. I had to skim read a lot of this and read carefully those parts of the story I could. I had very mixed feelings when I finished the story but re-assessed after reading about Alex’s ‘long and varied career as a hospital physician to public health’. During my past long and varied career in education I am sadly too aware that this story is not purely fiction, however, my cowardly self did not want to revisit these problems during my leisure time. However (again!) if bad things are hidden they continue to thrive, so congratulations Alex for bravely writing an all too real story to remind all of us that more should be done.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/312067

by NetGalley review


This book takes the reader into some dark places and does so in the context of a truly gripping story. Some very confronting scenes are portrayed so vividly that readers may find themselves feeling quite drained by the time they reach the final page. The characters are well developed and the dialogue credible.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/700299

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Wow! Just wow! I could not put this book down. I can honestly say it’s one of the most heart-wrenching books that I’ve ever read. At times, it’s not an easy read given the seriousness of the nature of the book. Not Forever is about a mother who sells her young daughter for sex, to get money to buy her drugs. Reading the book, you soon realise that the author must have expertise of what happens to the victims of child abuse, psychologically and physically; of the multitude of emotions, fears and consequences that they suffer at the hands of diabolical perpetrators, long after the abuse has ended.

I would definitely recommend reading this book but a word of warning: get plenty of tissues ready before you start because you’ll have used them all by the end.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/870013

by NetGalley review


Molly’s childhood is a world of secrets and hiding. Her life is spent escaping from danger with her mother. This time they leave London at night with a supposed offer of a house in Devon.
Lester’s house is more of a squat. He is a truly disgusting and violent man. Molly’s mother is held by the mixture of available drugs and a need to be wanted. Molly believes their lives are in danger if they try to escape.
Outside the run-down house, Molly discovers Dartmoor. The fantastic bleak wilderness is an unbelievable space for a young girl who knows only towns and dark alleys. Molly steals her times on the moor while Lester plots.
But when things go badly wrong for her mother, Molly seeks revenge and that’s when Police, Ambulance, Fire, and Court Services arrive.
And that is just the beginning.

This is a wonderful read.
Wonderful well written plot and story line that had me engaged from the start.
Love the well fleshed out characters and found them believable.
Great suspense and found myself second guessing every thought I had continuously.
Can't wait to read what the author brings out next.
Recommend reading.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/850180

by NetGalley review


A hard book to read at times, this is the story of a girl of indeterminate age (even she isn't sure) whose mother is a drug addict and who ends up in the clutches of a paedophile living on the edge of Dartmoor. It's the story of how she finds release by escaping to the moors, and how she tries to avoid the future "forever" that seems to be mapped out for her. Due to the child abuse content it is a difficult read at times but Molly is an engaging voice and I was gripped by the story and hopeful for her happy ending.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/783310

by NetGalley review


It’s always very difficult to review books based on other people’s distress and misery, and “enjoyable” is not a word I dare to categorically label this harrowing, deeply disturbing read.

The plot is based solely around Molly’s severely abusive childhood which is graphically described throughout this entire read. Born to a drug addicted mother, selling her child to men for her substances, this is a very hard and unsettling book.

Although I flew through this, there were times when I thought I couldn’t read on anymore, but I was desperate to find out how Molly dealt with all this, I was eager to know if she found safety, that if she was able to in some sort of way find a little bit of peace in her mind. (Although considering the horrific way she was treated, it would be completely understandable if she didn’t.)

The reason this is a five star read is because as a society we need to take note that these things are happening to children on a daily basis. We need our eyes open to the reality of what is happening behind closed doors for some. Stop brushing it under the carpet, or turning the other cheek. This maybe a difficult read but that doesn’t even begin to compare to the lives that these children are forced to live. We have the choice to read on or close the book, they don’t have any choices. We are failing our children. This all needs to stop, we as a society, need to take action on these groups of people that think this is acceptable. Changes need to be made. This has to be spoken about openly as this author does within the pages of this book. For these reasons I highly recommend this read.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/797142

by NetGalley review


This book is quiet dark, disturbing, and about a very hard subject, which will definitely not be for everyone. I would warn anyone looking to start to make sure you will not be triggered. If you won’t, then I do think you’ll find it to be very well written, with great character development! Would highly recommend to those whom can handle the subject, which I know is not everyone, hard to review because of subject manner, but done well for what it’s dealing with.

Original review: https://www.netgalley.co.uk/book/236084/review/362936

by NetGalley review


In his first adult novel Alex Mellanby tackles a very difficult subject matter. The plot really is quite harrowing and thought-provoking with exceptional character development.
I spent my childhood close to Dartmoor and the author describes it perfectly. I can visualize every single scene.
I think it is important to sometimes read outside one's comfort zone.

by Netgalley reviewer


Alex Mellanby

Alex's novels are not his first works of fiction since, as a doctor, he has many research papers published. Unable to stick general practice, psychiatry, or being a physician, he took up a senior post in Public Health in the control of communicable disease. That was mostly drain sniffing. He thought he had avoided Covid 19 but the General Medical Council re-registered him, potentially a disaster for the public.

His inspiration is Dartmoor. His first series of books were for young adults - The Tregarthur Series, published by Cillian Press. His current book is a marked departure into awfulness but finding a way to do more than just survive. Molly is his her in this book.



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