In this autobiographical memoir, Tony Millard explores the myths surrounding the issues regarding the concepts of success and failure, winning and losing, as well as his personal experiences in racial and social integration in newly enfranchised societies. His experiences are portrayed through his work as a volunteer, teacher and athlete, in Scotland, Fiji and Zimbabwe in the 1970s and 1980s. Although everyone wants to be a winner, few seem able achieve that status. That is true as much in life as it is in competition. In this book Tony describes how, at certain times in his life, he set course in a direction which opposed the norms of the parochial middle class society into which he was born. Seeking goals which would lead him to experience both the limits of personal endurance, as well as different cultural values, in order to achieve aims which required essentially no winners, and therefore no losers. His search for utopia has led him through some dark times but has also shown him the best of humanity in the most unlikely places.